Writing

I have recently discovered that I am starting to hate writing. Something that before brought me freedom and release has turned into a chore. I'm becoming annoyed with it and frusturated because I no longer have time to write in the ways I enjoy or wand to write, nor do I really want to anymore. This whole blogging thing is one of the things bothering me. I wouldn't mind it if only certain people could read it, but I guess it bothers me a little that people from all over the world get to look at what I write about, leaving me to feel as if I can only say certain things. I guess I just feel like I'm not allowed to be that creative with how I write anymore.
I use to love to write poetry, but now I dread even thinking about writing so I don't feel like it anymore. It's kinda a bummer, but I guess it's a good thing to find out how much it sucks before I think about doing it for a living. With this blog though, I don't even know what to write about half of the time. Sometimes, when I feel like I can't make it at least two paragraphs as required that it turns into me blabbering about nothing, just like right now. That makes me realize how much I'm really not enjoying it anymore and I guess it just sucks. Hopefully I'll get it back because it was fun for a while.